Why I don't work with flowers, rainbows, and pansies

I don’t work with flowers, rainbows, and pansies. That keeps us away from the truth and from our own depths.

I say this because, in the past few years, spirituality has picked up a certain aesthetic. Pink, lavender, pale gold. Hands touching in sunlight. Lotus flowers on pastel backgrounds. Warm words with no weight to them: light, vibration, abundance, elegance. The promise that if you only believe enough, if you only raise the frequency, everything aligns.

And when spirituality becomes comfortable in this way, it stops moving anything.

Aesthetic as anesthesia

Beauty helps. Beauty nourishes. The problem starts when it’s the only offer.

When everything around the spiritual process is gentle and photogenic, it becomes very easy to stay on the surface. To tell yourself pretty stories about who you are. To skirt the depths where the real fears, the blocks, the inherited patterns you didn’t even consciously choose actually live.

People come to me after years of pastel practice. “I read. I visualized. I set intentions. I bought crystals. Why do I still feel small?”

The answer is simple and unfair. Visualization doesn’t move a deep belief that says “I don’t deserve”. Crystals don’t change the inherited pattern that says “I have to sacrifice myself to be loved”. Intention is beautiful. But if an unconscious program is sabotaging it in the background, a program you don’t even see, the intention doesn’t take.

Pastel keeps you happy for twenty minutes. You buy a book, you follow a guide, you repeat a mantra. You feel better. Then the mind returns to how it was. The body stays charged. The energy stays clenched. And the fears stay intact.

Truth isn’t photogenic

What I’ve noticed in these years of work in the esoteric world is that truth doesn’t look like an Instagram image. It’s raw. It’s human. Sometimes it’s strange. It’s the moment you realize: “I was afraid to take up my space, because as a child I learned that, if I make myself small, I’m safe.” It’s painful. And it’s a gateway to freedom.

Going toward essence means looking directly. Observing the belief behind it. Asking: “Where does it come from? Who passed it to me? Do I still want it?” Usually the answer to that last question is no.

I work with the fears that show up in the mind: “I’m not good enough.” “I don’t deserve.” “I have to control everything.” “I’m responsible for what others feel.” I work with the blocks held in the body: tension in the chest when you don’t allow yourself to breathe, the clench in the stomach when you can’t tell your own truth, the pain in the back when you carry weights that aren’t yours. I work with inherited patterns: the women in your line were hurt in a particular way; what they could, they passed on as protection; now you live what they couldn’t, you make yourself small to receive love, you put others first to be kept in the community.

All of this is visible. It can be felt. It blocks you. And it doesn’t move with a hands-in-sunlight visualization.

Anesthesia isn’t kindness

This isn’t a critique of the people who use pastel aesthetics. Many do it with sincerity, they believe in it, they want to help. Love helps. Peace helps. Light helps. They just aren’t enough.

Working with the mind takes longer than three conscious breaths. Working with the body takes longer than one yin yoga session a month. If you want to change something at the root, you need to sit with the discomfort, with what you don’t understand, with what you don’t like about yourself. And walk through it, straight.

Anesthesia says: “Look at something beautiful, so you stop thinking about what hurts.” For a while, it works. But the block stays. It keeps you small in that borrowed quiet.

I want something more for the people who find me. I want you in direct dialogue with what stops you. With what makes you feel scared, unloved, like you don’t fit. I want you to recover the power that’s already yours. Through seeing. Through accepting. Through conscious choice.

Where we go from here

If you sense the moment has come to look more clearly inward, to work with the fears, with the blocks, with what shows up in the body, message me on WhatsApp.